tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663252320725706392024-02-21T02:29:34.748+00:00Ballgowns and BattleskirtsRoleplay, aerial, parenting, and geekery!Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.comBlogger484125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-76699257209866828732023-05-04T13:37:00.001+01:002023-05-04T13:37:17.086+01:00Dissecting a Trope: Ancient Man, Young WomanContains spoilers for Sarah J Maas's "A Court of..." series, though I've only read the first 2 books and I really enjoyed them and you should read them too, and I'm going to try to remember to get them out of the library on the walk home from picking my little one up from nursery today and did you know there's a library app that lets you download audio books and I just had to correct a typo and Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-37235323278847650322023-03-21T14:09:00.002+00:002023-03-21T14:09:20.604+00:00My Murder Mystery World - The Detective TeamI've wanted to write a locked room murder mystery style novel for many, many years, but never felt confident to do so. Years of thoughts and ideas have percolated through, though, and I think that maybe, maybe I'm ready. Maybe I finally have a good enough idea.I'm getting a good sense of my detectives. And starting to build the world, too, a fantasy setting because that's where I'm most Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-38573616910132604782023-03-20T10:54:00.005+00:002023-03-20T10:54:49.333+00:00Exalted - catch up timeskipI can't wait more and must get back to telling you about Exalted because I adore this game so much and no one's letting me info dump my joy on them at the moment. But there's so much that's happened since I last wrote anything so I need to catch you up super fast!Well, we fought in the Black Chase, convincing Undying Fury and The Emissary to help us. One notable thing we found was a weird black Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-53491703261390246572023-03-06T11:11:00.004+00:002023-03-06T11:11:50.632+00:00Monday UpdateHealth Update Has been a hectic year already. I feel like I can't get well at the moment, but I realised that my asthma is utterly out of control. It might sound stupid that I didn't realise sooner, but I've had several colds - I have a four year old, so that's expected - and I'm still dealing with grief and a broken finger and my mental health is shaky.The finger is healing. I only need to wear Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-48639904909178513682023-02-27T11:29:00.001+00:002023-02-27T11:29:48.769+00:00Hunter Begins!So excited! We actually got the first Hunter game done! I had 3 players lined up. One couldn't make it; we discussed quickly and she would like to be involved but couldn't commit to that date. Knowing how games can be excessively delayed, I suggested the rest of us make a start and we can slide the third player in when she is free.So, H & S came over for character generation and an introFern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-81403060824494226212023-02-24T11:41:00.002+00:002023-02-24T11:58:02.616+00:00Fiction Friday - SoulsEverything was bleary, inside my head as well
as my vision. Sounds rang in my ears, but whether voices or music I
couldn't discern. I blinked a few
times, tried to get my bearings. An
uneven path lay before me, the sandy,
dry ground crumbling as I staggered
forward. Beyond the path, the landscape was a dead heathland: grey
heather disintegrating into grey sand; sparse black trees clawing
at the Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-17511474040055533362023-02-20T10:48:00.004+00:002023-02-20T10:48:50.639+00:00Buy Me a Coffee?I've set up a "buy me a coffee" page. Feel a bit rude telling people, but I need the money. It exists. If you like what I do and want to help out, there's a link. Thanks. I'm working mostly on writing and aerial, and it's hard to make a living that way but my health has reached a point it feels like the only viable option. So wish me luck!Broken finger makes it harder to create new aerial contentFern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-63604289399771390412023-02-13T11:25:00.004+00:002023-02-13T11:25:49.066+00:00A quick life updateI've got a date for Hunter character gen! Very excited: 2 weeks. I'll give more detail after. Am also really nervous, because it's new to me to be the one in charge...Broke my finger. It hurts. Got caught in the fabric when I was doing a drop, and I didn't realise until it was too late. First confirmed broken bone of my life (hairline fracture on my ribs, and possible broken toe first week of uniFern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-44058934696189839212023-01-30T12:58:00.004+00:002023-01-30T12:58:53.253+00:00I Defiantly See Wrinkles as Evidence of Shared Joy.
I never expected to be stood here today. Deep inside, I think I
believed Granny would live forever. Of course, it would be unfair to
wish immortality on another person, but Granny wasn’t just any
other person: she was a force of life, an avatar of kindness, love
and compassion. Cultures around the world have concepts of deities of
life and as far as I can find, none take the form of an elderly Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-52745276152931845352023-01-16T12:21:00.003+00:002023-01-16T12:21:19.890+00:00RamblesIt feels strange to write here, like I have to pretend I'm not in mourning when I am, or like I have to pretend I'm so deep in mourning that nothing else exists.And neither's true. Both are true. It's never as simple as black and white; when we think that way, we don't just miss the shades of grey, but a full spectrum of colour.Going through this bereavement with an understanding that I am Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-69667022213601212462023-01-03T10:26:00.002+00:002023-01-03T10:26:25.046+00:00Ru RainbowMy Granny died on New Year's Eve. I have so much I want to say, but right now the grief is too huge so all I can manage is a photo.Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-78579135277180902062022-12-12T10:49:00.000+00:002022-12-12T10:49:05.093+00:00Hunter getting nearer...I've got the eariest sketch of an idea for metaplot for the Hunter game I want to run. It's not going to be as incredible as the meetaplots my GM creates, but that's ok: I'm learning, my players are learning, and it doesn't need to be so beautifully detailed and twisting as that.At least one of my players is aware of my blog, which makes me feel like I shouldn't talk about it here, but then againFern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-18569027482514651232022-12-05T12:45:00.000+00:002022-12-05T12:45:27.562+00:00Busy WritingCloaked Press have released the cover art for the anthology my story is being included in.Isn't that beautiful? I'm really excited about it. The kindle version is already available for pre-order. I'll keep you posted regarding the physical copy too.And also about their next anthology, Depths of Love: My Enemy. I'm not a fan of the "enemies to lovers" trope (although one of my favourite love Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-90857718814452130582022-12-02T11:00:00.001+00:002022-12-02T11:00:00.147+00:00Fiction Friday: Moments of Connection
It’s cold. I play with my breath, fogging in the air, pretending I
can make smoke rings. The cold air burns my nostrils as I inhale,
warms my mouth as I exhale. My hands are shoved firmly into the front
pocket of my hoodie and my cheeks sting against the chill.
I pop into the shop,
pick up the few pieces I need. It’s quiet; the few other patrons
carefully ignore me and each other. The shop Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-85361196776506906112022-11-28T14:53:00.001+00:002022-11-28T14:53:08.368+00:00Building My Hunter SettingI'm really excited to run Hunter. I've got a few of my aerial friends interested now. I'm hoping we'll find an evening we're all free so we can play. I'm figuring to start early next year.Here's an issue I have though, and a reason I've struggled with Hunter in the past: having played various of the WoD supernatural creatures, I have great sympathy with them that means it's hard for me to make Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-71763659378265663432022-11-21T10:01:00.006+00:002022-11-21T10:35:49.527+00:00Aerial and life updateThe strongest image I have of myself at the moment is a phoenix egg. I burnt down to ashes, and now I'm working on my rebirth. Eggs and hatchlings are extremely vulnerable, and I'm trying to protect myself to ensure my rebirth is successful and my next phoenix-stage thrives. I'm doing what I can, and the rest relies on external factors.Hello, my name is Fern, and I'm surviving.Life is hard for Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-43306779330814323732022-11-15T13:11:00.003+00:002022-11-15T13:11:36.121+00:00Running HunterI haven't run a game since uni, and only ever run a handful of sessions. But I want to introduce new people to TTRPG's and I want to run games for them that might bring them the same pleasure playing brings me.I don't know if it will work. I haven't the experience to bring the skill to running games as yet, and also playing is one of my biggest Special Interests, so I'm not sure other people can Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-79160881511270661842022-11-08T11:53:00.005+00:002022-11-08T11:53:59.798+00:00Introducing Summer I'm a day late, sorry! I haven't written about my games in ages, and I feel bad about that. I love sharing the stories we create, and showing off the depth of effort my usual GM puts in. I know it's partly for himself, but I feel honoured and flattered by the amount of thought and care he puts into the worlds the stories are built from - the NPC's feel like real people, the places feelFern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-23094935558752063342022-10-31T10:20:00.003+00:002022-10-31T10:20:43.510+00:00Happy Hallowe'enOn the day of the dead, when the year too dies,Must the youngest open the oldest hillsThrough the door of the birds, where the breeze breaks.There fire shall fly from the raven boy,And the silver eyes that see the wind,And the light shall have the harp of gold.By the pleasant lake the Sleepers lie,On Cadfan’s Way where the kestrels call;Though grim from the Grey King shadows fall,Yet singing the Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-79896865770534281442022-10-24T12:44:00.000+01:002022-10-24T12:44:11.054+01:00Dream come true!Really short post because I'm too excited to focus. That short story I said I'd submitted? It got accepted!I was anticipating rejection. I knew I liked the story, but I didn't know if it was good enough - imposter syndrome dogs my footsteps in most aspects of my life. I would have been happy with a rejection, though; proof I had taken a step out of my comfort zone, that I'd taken a risk towards Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-72698697711886921832022-10-17T12:12:00.004+01:002022-10-17T13:29:21.895+01:00Short Story - Mirror MirrorIf I'm going to succeed as a writer, I need to be doing lots of writing! So here's a bit of flash fiction for your enjoyment.
What was that? Out of the corner of my eye…
I’ve
just got home from work. It was a hard day. Pete was being a dick
again, almost literally. Slammed my keys on the side, shoved the door
shut, struggled out of my coat and scarf and strung them up. Then,
movement. A Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-78603826882227868682022-10-11T12:59:00.000+01:002022-10-11T12:59:12.090+01:00I Miss My MumThere is a lot going on in my life at the moment. I had to leave care even though I enjoyed it: I was so stressed that my eyebrows fell out. Several times. And one of them looks like a normal eyebrow (but not the bushy eyebrow had before), and the other is slowly returning.Diagnosis: stress-induced localised alopecia. Eyebrows, head hair (I lost a third of it last time we moved house and a Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-75020046574980511722020-10-21T11:38:00.001+01:002020-10-21T11:38:08.898+01:00I promise I am working on more material!Life has just runaway with me a bit. Between work, fibromyalgia and Ziggy, I'm pretty exhausted all the time. But today's my day off work and Husbit and Ziggy are curled up on the sofa watching TV to give me a chance to do my own thing for once. Well, I say "for once", but I do get to go to circus once a week and play Mage once a month. It's not much, but it's something, and I'll be Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-82464950430355558252020-05-21T21:20:00.000+01:002020-05-21T21:20:21.057+01:00Short post!Very short post. New job started and I love it - tiring, though! Hence drop off in posts again, despite good intentions. The PPE makes me overheat and I can feel my face tingling from the pressure even on my days off, but I try to be grateful to have it. I feel sorry for the residents I'm working with: a lot of them rely on lip reading, and the masks can be a bit scary and intimidating, Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-466325232072570639.post-75498919399357001602020-04-30T20:52:00.001+01:002020-04-30T20:52:33.841+01:00Still here!Hello everyone!
I'm hoping to get some geeky posts going soon. Started writing up a bit more Mage, at least. Finding it hard because pretty much the only time I get to write is after Ziggy's gone to bed, and I'm so tired then! But I have to do e-learning for my new job, with several courses before I start on Monday (eep!), so he's having to learn to leave me to work when I'm on the laptop, and Fern Kalihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18091290715029156747noreply@blogger.com0